"it scares me that i'm not scared of how much i've changed (though it may not seem obvious, i am a good hypocrite, in that sense). there's no inward tug of heart strings when i hear a sob story, a friend's latest update, a distant person's life in general. in short, i'm pretty much disengaged from everything and everyone around me, but in some strange way, i still care. i just don't show it anymore.

now, i wonder what (or who?) made me this way."

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it's so funny how she can be a million miles away but feel exactly the same way as I do.

School's killing me school's killing me school's killing me!Can't wait for this week to be over cos' I am lagging behind in all my subjects like crazy and it's not fun at all to play catch up.tmr's prolly gonna feel like the longest day of my school life it's so strange once again how sometimes I'm so used to feeling nothing that it almost feels normal.Almost.I have begun to feel entirely numb to my surroundings.Numb and cold and u n f e e l i n g.Yes this is what has become of us.Unfeeling creatures.